Monday, and a realization. Ohm...

Yesterday I was supposed to hang with Priya, Jeremy, David, and Roly to play D&D.
10-12, then rehearsal, then Cocomero with Emma, Mir, and Jeremy.

What actually happened is as follows.

I set my alarm for 8am but fell back to sleep, because NPR does not wake me up very well on a weekend, and then I blinked and it was 10:15, and Joey was at my door telling me that someone was waiting outside for me.
I literally threw stuff on, and then ran out and apologized for being late.
Roly couldn't make it, which is whatever. I'm not really sure what to make of him anyway.
I stayed at Priya's building a gnome rogue (squee!) until about 12:30, then went back home to grab stuff for rehearsal.
I couldn't find my freaking script, so I grabbed a pair of shorts and my phone then ran out the door.
Rehearsal went until 6. Sadness, kinda.
I really like the dances for this show. I think I'm getting better at dancing, plus the dance thus far for Mr.Cladwell is super easy.
Except there is going to be a lot of spinning at the start, which we havent learned yet. I'm really bad at spinning. Or being graceful in general with movement.
Theres a bit where we dance with clipboards, and we toss them...I cut myself right on the inside of my left wrist during the toss, and now it looks like I'm emo, because its right next to a big vein. It's just a scratch, but it looks ugly.
I had to cancel Cocomero due to a lack of time, funds, and transportation. There's talk of a movie on Thursday, but I'm not counting on it.

I came home and some old neighbors, who are in town from washington state, came over. It was nice seeing them again, especially now that the difference between Hannah and I is less. She's a senior this year. Its interesting because we seem a lot less distant in maturity now. Ish.
-sigh-

I went into a bit of a panic attack. I had promised myself to avoid negative energy, and I broke that promise. I'm more upset with myself than anything. I suppose that was the idea.

I came to a realization though. I've been trying to make lessons, strategies in which to live by, but life is simple. Teenagers, especially girls, overlook that. They contradict themselves, and make exceptions and little seperate clauses for different scenarios.
But whether these girls like it or not, life is simpler than that.
Do what makes you happiest. Its worth it.
Treat everyone with kindness and respect, regardless of who they are or how they treat you. A person is a person, no matter how small. Or mean. Or ugly. Ha. Irony...
Stand up for what you believe in, but do it with pride and kindess in your heart. If you don't, who will?

Cheesy?
In all seriousness, though, I think theses "rules" are in back of people's minds, but only in effect when they want them to be. Not all the time as intended.
I feel enlightened somehow. O.o
Probably not. I think my brain just imploded a little.
Hasta.