I need this blog too damn much.
The other day, I said something which was taken out of context and blown out of proportion into something offensive and then it got around to the whole freshman class, and so now everyone thinks I'm a biased, racist dickwad. I don't want to get into it in vigorous detail, but it was just one of those moments when I had no idea what was going on until I had said it.
After 3 years of12 year old hell middle school, I'm kind of used to the evil eye from people, but this is just a little much for me to handle.
Now, I explained what went on in my head to the person I said it to and she said it was fine, but in the meantime, either she's not really okay, or it hasn't spread to the world that I'm not actually a racist dickwad.
Both options worry me. I mean, I'll only be in contact with these people for a few more weeks, but it'll be hard studying for finals if the world hates me.
I talked to Andrew though. I'm so grateful for the friends I do have here, people who will listen to me but also tell me to shut up and stop worrying about things. He let me blab for a half hour, even though it was an hour past his 'bedtime'.
I'm temporarily at ease at this moment in time. Hopefully, it lasts until after school tomorrow.
That being said, goodnight.
The other day, I said something which was taken out of context and blown out of proportion into something offensive and then it got around to the whole freshman class, and so now everyone thinks I'm a biased, racist dickwad. I don't want to get into it in vigorous detail, but it was just one of those moments when I had no idea what was going on until I had said it.
After 3 years of
Now, I explained what went on in my head to the person I said it to and she said it was fine, but in the meantime, either she's not really okay, or it hasn't spread to the world that I'm not actually a racist dickwad.
Both options worry me. I mean, I'll only be in contact with these people for a few more weeks, but it'll be hard studying for finals if the world hates me.
I talked to Andrew though. I'm so grateful for the friends I do have here, people who will listen to me but also tell me to shut up and stop worrying about things. He let me blab for a half hour, even though it was an hour past his 'bedtime'.
I'm temporarily at ease at this moment in time. Hopefully, it lasts until after school tomorrow.
That being said, goodnight.
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