Sunday, November 14, 2010

Venting to the world. disregard.

I'm back from DC.
Long story short: It was really pretty and I did a lot of things, ate a lot of food, and saw a lot of old buildings, and then I went home. the end.

While I was there, though, all of my problems seemed so insignificant. None of the stuff going on right now isn't going to matter in a few years. Its all high school. Its just a bunch of teenage girls and misconceptions.
In other words, no one else is going to care.

That brings me to the smartest, most obvious thing I should have concluded years ago(and I NEED to get this off my chest):
Talking about people, seriously or in jest, is stupid.
At the moment, gossip is the root of all of my problems. Thats probably the case for a lot of peoples drama.

As big headed as that sounded, I need to stop talking about people. Period.
I think in the back of my mind I tried to get myself to stop gossiping, but it wasn't a serious effort before.
Suddenly, I feel awful saying the littlest things about people, even if its a good thing.

I've been reading old chat logs and creeping on my own network pages lately(yeah. creepy.), and looking back on who I was even a few months ago, I have changed.  I feel like a lot of what's been going on has been part of that change. I almost think that  over the 3 days I was out of town I just POOF changed.

Probably not what happened.  But at least I can finally recognize a mistake I made.
The only dumb part about this is I realized said mistake after I hurt people who weren't meant to be hurt, and how long it took me to realize and to develop a sense of wrong and right to my thoughts.
Make sense?
Probably not. This was really just to vent. I'm not trying to make a point to the world.
This website is meant to track how much I change and have changed over the course of middle school and high school. And thats all this rant was. I'll probably delete it or change it to private in a little while.

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